Conquering my Struggles, Filling my Voids
I am a unique and complex individual.
I am an addict. I am also a unique and complex individual who has struggled with addiction, depression, sexual identity, and rigid beliefs instilled in me from an early age. I had a void in my soul for as long as I can remember, and I spent over a decade trying to fill that incomplete part of me. I am finding that whatever I can touch, or feel, or anything tangible is not the answer that I seek. Instead, it is the invisible, intangible gifts that fill me on a daily basis that define my purpose and existence.
I am not one to go to treatment, and while I have been to a few, not one of them was for the right reasons. I arrived at Wellington Retreat based on suggestions from complete strangers, because I was in the pit of my addiction. Upon arrival, and throughout my stay, I have been met with caring and competent individuals who genuinely care about my well-being. The doctors are without parallel, and are intervening, and functioning in each patients treatment daily. Many who are employed by the retreat have struggled with addiction, and mental illness, and for me have been the backbone of the program. I can see in them, hope. When I didn’t want help, they gave me a thirst for change. I thought that I might be able to transform my life, and conquer my struggles.
Of course Wellington Retreat has not answered my questions for life, or meaning. They did not cure my anxieties or restore peace. They instilled the tools in me I need to deal with my crazy thinking, and life, one day at a time. When I didn’t want recovery, they didn’t give up on me, but stuck with me until I was ready. I am so glad God put me at Wellington, I wouldn’t want it any other way.